Monday, August 8, 2011
Hi Ho! Hi Ho! It's back to work I go!
It's been a mixed bag of emotions with me retuning to work. A part of me loved having the opportunity to be a stay at home mom for so long and after 23 weeks of bed rest I surely appreciated 10 whole months of time with my baby before returning to work! But part of me has always been a working mom. This has been a balance that I've been familiar with since I was a baby as my own mother worked hard while raising us three girls on her own our whole lives. This was my example and I follow it proudly. I also have worked regularly since becoming a mother so I don't really know anything else.
I'm glad I got the opportunity to be at home for a while as it taught me many things (that I suppose I already knew) about myself. Like the following:
1) I need daily structure. Without it my ADD reigns supreme and I don't get nearly as much done!
2) I NEED to miss my kids. Guess what. You don't get to miss your kids when they're always hanging off you!
3) I need to be recognized for the work I do. Not once while I was at home did anyone say "Mom, those socks you folded yesterday were an amazing piece of work!" or "Sweetie, your toilet cleaning skills above expectation!"
4) I need days off. That's the funny thing about being a stay at home mom. No days off. Same thing every day.
5) I want to teach people and have them listen. Employees are faaaaaaar more likely to listen to advice than children. Hands down.
There were so many things I was so grateful for while I was home too though!
1) It was reaffirmed that my husband and I are true soul mates and partners. I mean, I was 100% reliant on him the whole time I was on bed rest. Day in and day out. And you know what? He was amazing and we did fine being together every stinkin day! We lived each one of our vows, "In sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, for better or for worse" and came out on top. I love you honey!
2) My kids are amazing little people! I knew it before but it was amazing to see them in their daily habits and routines. When you work your days with them on the weekends are either running errands or doing something out of the ordinary like the zoo.
3) My sister and her 4 kids moved 2 blocks away (from California) just before I gave birth. So I got to spend a ton of time with her and the kids during their first year in Washington! A real treat since I've lived here for 13 years and haven't been able to get to know any of them.
So while my time home was blessed I am so glad to have been able to return to work. And for a company I truly love! I think this may have been part of the plan this whole time. There were lessons I learned and like I always say, sometimes God whispers and sometimes he yells. I don't think I was listening too well so he had to yell. But great lessons came from all of the grief of the past year and a half so I wouldn't change any of it- with the exception of my father-in-law's suicide. That I would change in a heart beat.
I am doing work differently this time and I made that clear in my interview. I stated that for this season in life, I want a lighter load so I can go home on time each day, not work weekends, not be on my laptop each night after the kids go to sleep. I want more of a balance to my work and personal life than I allowed before. And so far I think I'm doing it. I take lunch breaks and leave on time so my time with my family is not compromised. I hope I keep this pace because it's pure bliss!
Yes, it's back to work I go. But in the end, my home is still my #1 priority!